Facing Marriage.

"He'd never understood much about his feelings toward Cynthia, but he knew and understood this: He didn't want to keep teetering on the edge, afraid to step forward, terrifed to turn back.

The weight on his chest was palpable; he'd felt it often since she moved next door and into his life. Yet it wasn't there because he loved her, it was there because he was afraid to love her completely.

Perhaps he would always have such a weight; perhaps there was no true liberation in love. And certainly he could not ask her to accept him as he was -- flawed and frightened, not knowing."

"There comes a time when there's no turning back."

The above quote comes from author Jan Karon's book, A Common Life. It describes perfectly how I'm feeling as I face my wedding day. In the book, the male character, portrayed above, requests in one simple word to God all the fears and needs in his heart, "Please ..." he cried.

I echo his cry.